I haven't been blogging for quite some time. Since some people criticized my blog saying I have lousy english. Ya, I'm a very "simpan dendam" eh person. I would keep in my mind for a long time before I decided that it's actually not a big deal. Basically i got nothing to blog about. Just wanna find something to do cos' i'm so damn bored now! I always remind myself to study study and study! But somehow i end up playing games or online. Then' I would start panic when the exam is near.
During the raya break, I didn't go out with friends that often. Mostly spent my time with family. Nevertheless, it was still one of the best break ever! We went to Batu Kawan for seafood. Oh, I got a dress for my cousin's wedding already! Hmm......kinda expensive though but thanx to mum! hehe.....
I did a stupid thing. I cried in front of them when we were on the way to grandma's birthday dinner. They were like asking me what happened and even thought that I cried because I argue with js or wat. I told them it's not. I didn't tell them the real reason until mum found out that I cried on bed that night....again. She told me I should tell them why I cried as they are worried of me. I decided to tell out everything. I told them I felt being left out and that they don't care for me that much anymore. I knew she was sad when she heard that. She told me not to think that anymore as they still love me very much. Especially my dad. He would always remind my mum to call me when I'm in uni. He would always cook for me when I'm back home. He would call me when I didn't back home after midnight. My mum told me all that and said that my dad would be real sad if he knew I said that he dun care for me. Just then I realized that I'm actually so immatured and stupid.
The next day mum told me to call dad to apologize. I did. I told him I'm dumb and don't know how to think. I asked for his apologize and he did accept it and told me not to think about that anymore. From that on, I could feel that they are treating me differently. The better they treat me, the more guilty I would feel. Cos' I've hurt them and made them worried. How stupid I am right?

To those who cares for me, I promise I wouldn't simply think anymore and I would take good care of myself~